Sunlight

Oh it has been a rough, rough few days for me. You see, our boiler died last Wednesday, and since then we have had no hot water and no heating. The heating I can almost live without, because it has been fun to layer the blankets on the bed, have hot water bottles and candles gleaming.

It has been the lack of hot water that has really, really dragged me down. Having to wash your hands in icy water, and boil kettles for a wash in the morning, or drive ten miles to my dear Carls family house so we can have a shower before work. Dreaming of a long hot bath and a cup of tea, and it being so very near, yet so very out of reach. Having to cook dinner by what creates the least washing up rather than what my heart tells me to cook.

I know I should not complain, as by the end of the week I will have hot water again, and there are many people in the world without water at all, but it has just bought me down. And we have been waiting a week to hear if my lovely Carl got the job he went for and wants so much.

The last few days have been dark, which is part of why I have not blogged so much. I don't want people to read my words and feel dragged down. But today, today, they phoned and said the boiler is being put in on Friday. The job people phoned and said there would be a decision by the end of the day. I am going to Carls parents tonight for a long hot shower. A book I have been waiting for arrived at the library. And, today, our pet snake did basking under his new light for the very first time!

Today feels like we have turned a corner. That there is a cool spring breeze blowing, and soon daffodils will be nodding in the breeze. I feel like I have found a corner of sunlight, and I am basking in it just like our snake. I have a day off on Thursday. I am going to go to a bookshop-cafe to potter.

It feels like I have been clenching all my muscles with all my might, and suddenly....I can let go.

Anyone else ever feel like this?

I am so glad I have found my patch of sunshine again!