Tuesday, 26 May 2009

Back Again...Again

Well hello and good evening. I feel of late that I only ever come here to post to explain why I have been away for so long. I really hope that this is the last time I have to do this! A month ago, I had a phonecall from Mum to say that Dad was not well again. Those words make my blood freeze in my veins (those of you who have been sweet enough to stick with me for a year or so will know that he was very ill in hospital for several weeks one winter, and it was terribly straining) but this time, it was not the trouble of old, but a new one. The doctors believed that he had a small stroke, a transient one.

He had a scan, and while we were waiting for the results, he had another stroke, and this one put him in hospital. Thankfully, thankfully, he is home now, but waiting with him in A&E last Monday night with the family all gathered round was terrifying. Just to look at him you could see that something was very wrong- he was bright red in the face, lopsided and dribbly, and very out of it.

Although he seems much more himself now, I have been very scared about how fragile we are. Really, for all our physical presence, we are as fragile as the china cups from which I sip my tea, and are just as easily smashed. One slip, and gone. Don't worry, I am not planning on this being a gloomy gloomy post, because I am very pleased that he is so much better, but the whole episode has had me pondering the fragility of life, the fleeting nature of it.

It makes me more and more determined not to put things off, not to save things for best, to do things now, not later. To start that blanket, write that novel...carpe diem, seize the day!

So, that is me, that is where I have been. Dear Carl jokingly admonished me earlier as he heard me tip tapping away, saying that I will have nobody left if I dont keep up with you. I hope that is not true! And I will try hard to deserve those of you that are left!

In the spirit of thanking those of you who do visit me, leave me a comment with your email address, and I will send you a little parcel of a few of my favourite tea bags (Lipton's Yellow Label!) and such bits to say thank you.

5 comments:

Ann said...

Hi. Well I am one of the people - many i imagine - who read your blog. Of late I have been checking almost every day to see if you have posted anything and this time when I checked you had posted! I like your style - even though we are probably very different there is something about your blog that makes me keep coming back to it, even though i found it by accident when you blogged a scone recipe. wainwrightann@aol.com

loulou said...

Glad you're back, and I hope your Dad continues to improve.

The Vintage Kitten said...

Im so sorry to read about your dad, it must have been such a worry for you and your family. So glad he is on the mend X

Anonymous said...

Hope your dad is doing well!
Glad to see you back!

Chris in Canada
wilburcbs@hotmail.com

Dinah Soar said...

I'm catching up reading your blog..hence these late comments. It is my pleasure to read your blog, so no apology necssary. Of course the more often you post and share, the more pleasure for me...so do post away often if you are able and inclined.